Then there were 20...

Wow...my photo came out really small...lol.






I graciously acknowledge that I have some catching up to do. For my absence, I will graciously drop, and give you 20.



1. I wasn't able to locate my biological father today. Every Father's Day, I search, to no avail.



I feel blessed that I get to continue on with a ritual...I'll hunt for him again next year.



2. For the phone call I made to the man who adopted me, I am thankful. I'm sure he sat there, listening to me struggle for words on his answering machine....but at least I made the first move.



He is my Father, after all.



3. For the LARABAR. (I have only had the Apple and the Jocolat; BOTH ARE SO GOOD!)



No, no....dont just skim over this, and move on...just try one of these things. They're REALLY good....



My girlfriend Linda came by my house one morning, and she had one she shared with me. Eating them reminds me how good it felt to have a friend love me enough to share her candy with me...



And these are so good, that I , MYSELF, probably would NOT have shared. They are delicious, but remind me to be kind at the same time.

And they're 90% raw, totally organic, sugar free, wheat free, gluten and dairy FREE, no soy....



Just FOOD. Yum.



4. For a few packages of magnets that will go out in tomorrow's mail. I had fun picking out which ones I'd send to whom, and decorating the packages.....



I'm so thankful to be supported in my quest to find a cure for cancer.



5. For surprises that I almost cant hold in, but I know that I have to....I have the MOST BEAUTIFUL surprise. I am SO excited to be part of a solution...



You'd never believe....



OK, soon. I promise.



6. For Arnold Palmer's. ICE cold ones...



7. For Silence. I don't care what ANYONE says, Silence is GOLDEN.



8. For my homemade Potato Salad. I can't go wrong, and at every BBQ, people request it. I feel so proud of this Salad....(I just wish I knew what I did exactly that made it taste so good! Every time I make it, I fear it wont taste the same as before, because I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW what I'm doing!



It's just ALWAYS good...every time.



9. For my quiche....same as above.



10. For optimism; it does so much for my life experience to understand the power of my own perspective. There is such power in our choices.



I am so thankful.



11. For important manuscripts that are printed and ready to be sent off, until I find a happy face on the back, colored in green crayola.



It was the heavens pointing out what I had accomplished, all while raising a 3 year old.



I can print it again...but the time I have right NOW with that little boy, I will never get back.



12. For a job I LOVE, that I can do in my pajama's with the music on, happy faces made of white Play Dough on my desk, and Dora the Explorer singing down the hall. I love my job...



13. For Moon and Star shaped Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwiches, with pretzels and fresh strawberries on the front lawn.



14. For the notes inside the jar to my right.



15. For the man that I think about all of the time, and for the love that I feel for him. I wonder if he knows what he means to me.



16. For tranquility in my temple; my Home, as well as my Center.



17. For heart ache....



Any feeling other than LOVE, leaves my heart to ache. Who does this really hurt? Their heart, or mine? I love MYSELF more than to allow another day of heart ache over the distaste I have toward someone else.



No love, no hate. No pain....no gain, either, unfortunately. But the cycle stops here, and I appreciate that CHOICE.



It just IS.



18. For dreams that come true. I cant say it enough....I'm so excited.



My God...the power of choice is incredible. It's ALL up to me. It's so obvious, and so CLEAR...I get it. It's all coming into full alignment according to a divine PLAN, and I am the Co-Founder.



Gotcha.



Finally....no, really...I get it.



19. For the feeling of utter fluidity, in a life filled with every twist and turn imaginable. No, I do not know what LIFE might throw in my direction, but I can tell you that I will ALWAYS be in the best possibly position to WELCOME whatever it may be.



I am prepared, God. I am LOVING this life.



I am loving it now more than ever as I realize what I am capable of when I follow my bliss, and MAKE my dreams a reality.



Life is awesome when we CHOOSE joy. And JOY is our BIRTHRIGHT.....



20. For Harry S. Truman, this Father's Day, who said,



"I have found that the best way to give advice to a child is to find out what they want, and then, advise them to do it"!



Count your blessings; the big ones, the small ones, and every one of them in between...not at the end of each day, but all day long, be grateful, and whisper "thank you" for the many gifts that are bestowed upon you each day, each hour, each moment.



And love one another.



Elle

It only looks bad....

But really, it isn't bad at all.

1. Thank you for small, safe, intimate places. For the safety in my blankets, and the warmth from the fireplace, and the light of the half moon. My children sleeping soundly, my heart full of love for the world around me, and my sense of purpose shining through in my personal joy.

I am blessed in these small, intimate places.

2. Thank you for layers of love. Layer upon layer of love surrounds me, protecting me from the harsh realities of what I might otherwise face with fear and anger. No matter how I scream and shout, the layers of love will comfort me. No matter how I cry, kick, yell, curse or collapse, those layers remain all around me. I will always be cushioned, as long as I surround myself in LOVE.

I am blessed to be comforted by layers of love.

3. Thank you for really big dreams. I'm so close to reaching this dream, and I feel so blessed to be chosen to share a message. I feel so blessed to be in the place that I am right now in my life where I am able to truly follow my bliss, and participate in a monumental movement to save lives.

I am so blessed to have big dreams. I promise to always follow them.

4. Thank you for The Station. Stationary. I can always count on my Station, inside me, when I need a quiet place to check the map. I can always get back to The Station, every route will always lead you back to The Station, and no matter which trolley you hop on, chances are...you will eventually end up back at The Station. It's all temporary...look out the window, see the sights....get off the trolley if you dare. It's OK, because another trolley will always be along, with whatever opportunity is headed your way, and do you know what? Inevitably, you end up right back at The Station. So enjoy the ride...each leg of the trip only lasts so long, and we can go ANYWHERE we choose.

How blessed we are though, to always have The Station, our Center. My Center is where God awaits me.

Seems, He is always at the Station...Thank you God for always waiting patiently.

5. Thank you for the word, "Knapsack".

Does anyone ever say that anymore?

(It makes me crack up...)

OK, back into my layers....

Love,

Elle

The Answer is in my Watermelon

1. For Seedless Watermelon, I thank Thee.

Summer fruits are divine, and I swear, a little taste of the Heavenly banquet that awaits us. Strawberries, Nectarines, Ripe Peaches, and Bing Cherries, Artichokes, home grown Tomatoes, and the sweetest Oranges EVER come right now. But one season a year, we are blessed with Natures Candy.

I love Summer Food; real, raw, FOOD.

2. For Diet Shasta, I thank Thee.

Yeah, times are tight with finances, so I decided to head over to the 99 Cent Only Store to see what they had in the way of CHEAP Soda...

No one, so far, can tell the difference....Diet Pepsi? Nope. Coke? Nu-uh....

Shshshhhhhh.....

(I cant keep hiding these cans, though....its exhausting...like hiding a boyfriend I know my parents wouldn't approve of...).

I love that I got this poison for such a bargain.

3. For the unexpected...I thank Thee.

I love the unexpected. I always am so sure that I know exactly what I want...I get this feeling of being SO right, SO on target, SO CLEAR.....and I scream to the heavens, "Isn't it OBVIOUS what should be happening right now? Can I get a little help here??"

And there is always a reason....And a surprise that was unexpected.

The answer to my prayer is only "NO", when there is something BETTER in store.

I love that I have faith.

4. For Caterpillars, I thank Thee.

The dogs ate the last ones we found...(I don't know why they did that. Both dogs looked REALLY sorry though, so I had to forgive them).

I have a feeling these enormous creatures will soon be Tiger Swallowtails. As they migrate from Canada, they breed along the way, and the offspring of Caterpillars carries on the cycle, and to Mexico they go.

To drink Margarita's.

No, no, I don't really know what they do once they get to Puerto Villarta, but I would imagine that a Margarita after such a long trip would be a top priority...I'm just guessing.

I love Butterflies, cycles, migration, change, life...and even my dogs.

5. For clean sheets, I thank Thee.

Yep, the sheets are clean...

Candle light, soft music, fresh summer fruit, Diet Shasta with Rum and...

I love clean sheets.

Love,

Elle

It was Mint N Chip...

1. For the 10 year old child who shared his ice cream with me, after my scoop of Mint N Chip hit the pavement,

I give thanks.

2. For those who have committed to purchasing Love Magnets,

I GIVE THANKS.

Awesome things are coming. I am sure of this.

3. For Sisters who support my ambitions, goals, and desires, and for their love that steps in when I feel that the whole world has stepped out,

I give thanks.

4. For the freedom to BAN Cola of ANY kind from my diet, as ALL cola's contain ethylene glycol, which is used in anti-freeze. Ethylene glycol is a slow poison...

For clean drinking water,

I give thanks.

5. For dreams that come true, God...

I give thanks.

Love,

Elle

Gratitude For Graditude

For tall skinny mocha's, and pennies on the ground.

For little boys who sleep, and cease to make a sound.





For the cat curled up at the foot of my bed,


And for the silly insanity that flows through my head.





For finger paints, sidewalk chalk, and home made clay,


There are blessings in store for us every day.





It never fails, they're all over the place,


Every where you turn, in every Sisters face.





The the flowers that bloom, and for berries so sweet,


For all the beautiful souls I am bound to meet.





For mid-day naps, and and Creme Bru Le Cheesecake,


For my health, my clarity, and and for old time's sake.





For the garden of dreams in which I have planted my heart.


For peace in knowing I'm doing my part.





For the past that made me who I am today,


And for my dogs who always want to play.





For the 3 year old that never stops talking,


(Just yesterday, I was wishing he were walking...).





For the 10 year old child who lives down the hall,


And every day asks to go to the mall....





For a strong hand to pull me in, when I get out of line,


And for the man who lets me go, when he knows that it's my time.





For choice, joy, freedom, and fortitude,


But mostof all, thank you God, for Gratitude.





By: Elle Febbo


Photography by Elle Febbo

Far More...

Far More...

Far more than you could ever know,

Far more than words can say,

You're on my mind,

And in my heart,

With every passing Day.

You fill my life with happiness,

You're all my dreams come true,

And there's no greater joy for me,

Than just to be with you.

By

Elle Febbo

1986

My first publication... I was 12 years old.

Follow your bliss...